17 August

Breakfast:

24 oz coffee

Lunch:

Subway Cold Cut Combo on wheat with pepperjack cheese 790 kcal

I barely ate anything yesterday, so I decided to splurge. I won't have a chance to eat until tomorrow with the show tonight. SUE ME.

Dinner:

Tom Yum soup 280 kcal

16 August

Breakfast:

24 oz coffee

Lunch:

Sbux Protein Bistro Box 340 kcal

Sbux Venti iced coffee, 2 equal, lite ice 6 kcal

Snack:

1/2 bag pretzels 115 kcal

Spicy mustard 5 kcal

Pre-dinner 466kcal

Dinner:

3 eggs 306 kcal

1 oz pot roast 160 kcal

Total: 932 kcal

15 August

Breakfast:
24 oz coffee
1 nectarine 63 kcal


Lunch:
Chipotle Burrito Bowl with Chicken, fajitas veggies, cheese, rice 530 kcal
Rockstar Sugar Free 20 kcal

Pre dinner total: 613 kcal

Dinner:
4 oz salmon, grilled: 232 kcal
Romaine salad with 2T lite italian, 60 kcal
1 hard boiled egg, no yolk 17 kcal
2 cubes colby jack cheese 134 kcal
Diet Coke

Total: 1056 kcal

14 August

Breakfast:
24 oz coffee
1 nectarine 63kcal

Lunch:
Trader Joe's Palak Paneer 500kcal
(Ok, I didn't realize this meal was so much. Honestly why make a frozen meal if HALF is a serving?)

Dinner:
Footlong Veggie Delight from Subway, wheat bread, pepperjack cheese: 560 kcal.
(I meant to save half of this sandwich for my lunch tomorrow. It didn't happen. I have no self-control. I also make this sandwich too delicious. I swear the only condiment you ever need is vinegar.)

Club soda, rum & mint: 70kcal

Total: 1193 kcal

13 August

Breakfast:

48 oz. coffee

1 med apple 65kcal

1 nectarine 63 kcal

Lunch:

Sbux Protein Bistro Box 340 kcal

Sbux skinny vanilla latte iced venti 110kcal

Pre-dinner- 578kcal

Snack:

1/2 avocado 80 kcal

Dinner:

4oz shawarma 280 kcal

1/3 cup saffron rice 80kcal

2 cubes feta 90kcal 

1108 kcal total. 

10 Aug

I don't think anyone realizes how much being in Indy is depressing to me. I'm having issues getting out of bed or finding any motivation to do anything but drink and forget that I'm here. So few things have made me happy lately that I've shut a lot of people out. I have a short fuse, and I get upset at the smallest things. I don't even feel like it's worth it to mend friendships that once were more important because all I've learned from my time here is that no matter if you are a loser who had a kid at 18, or you go out and spend all your money on booze every night, having really shitty tattoos, riding a bike with no brakes, and going to the "hip" bars means you're ok and everyone should like you. This place is a brain drain black hole.

Fuck that. Fuck this town.

27 June

Breakfast:

24 oz coffee

8 oz Bolthouse Berry Boost

I actually took my viatmins today: TJs Women's Formula, biotin, Calcium, B complex

Banana (organic)

Lunch:

Spinach salad with chicken, feta, olives, tomato, banana pepper, lemon juice as dressing

CLC

Snack:

Envirokids bar

CLC

Banana

Dinner:

5 oz salmon

1/2 avocado

celery

tomatoes

So I might be allergic to something in the Bolthouse C-Boost juice, or I got a bad batch this time. Every time I had it, I threw up violently. I kept drinking it because the first time I was super hungover. I don't know, it tastes really good, I might give it another try. I'm a sucker for punishment anyway. Working so much is really running me down, and I'm not sure about some of the new staff that has been hired at my pub job. Desk job is the same everyday, and I wish I could work out more. I constantly fidget to try and lose weight. Mistakenly got on the scale last night, and it basically ruined my life. I feel so much thinner, but the number didn't reflect that at all.