Unique New York

I don't know how to express myself anymore. I can't seem to get through to anyone, not even my journal.

I need to party.

I want to go to a party like the Metro Station 'Control' video.

I feel..

..really good about myself today. Perhaps it is just the diet Rockstar talking, but I haven't felt this way in a long time.

It's all in the past, bitch, cause now I've got it beat!

I love this song.

Listen..

I've always been too crass or swearing like a sailor, but most of the time I'm joking. I come up with different things to say things. I'm going to think what I think, and if I can be proved otherwise, I will shut the eff up.

Today is completely stupid. I hope my Jeep doesn't cost too much to fix.

Life: 9 months in

Ash-es on Halloween

Cheesing in Brooklyn

KP, age 2 as Bozo

Fox Mulder playing Castelvania

EVERYTHING IS GREAT.

I have never, ever, ever been this happy. Every morning, when I wake up and its cold and dark at 6:30, I don't even care. I wake up next to the man I am really looking forward to marrying. I love my job, and I just need to wokr on saving for a new car. Some drama has been happening outside of my perfect bubble, but its laughable, and unimportant to me. I'm getting really excited that Alicia is moving back to Indy for next semester, and still looking forward to getting my first tattoo.

I'm going to dye my hair red soon.

Anon Tumblr Questions

Do you ever look back on things and go, why? because i feel like you should.
Yes, I dated a retard from 2007-2009.

Good reads

I could have written these articles:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1329714/The-sex-files-survey-Can-trust-lover.html

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1329635/Rowan-Pelling-sex-advice-Ive-started-date-serial-ladies-man-I-trust-him.html

You've started dating a serial ladies man? Don't trust them, obviously.

Baggy Update

My Baggy

So by now I'm sure everyone knows that my old roommate Katie stole my cat, Bagheera. Well he lives in Oregon now with one of her really lame friends. I found this picture of him on Facebook, and its exciting to see that he's all big now. I miss him, and I would imagine that he and Mulder would be good friends. I want to get another black cat one day.

I guess its for the better that I don't have anything to remind me about my life in Lafayette. I keep having really weird dreams about I don't like it. Its like I'm just kicking myself for putting up with bullshit for so long. I'm embarrassed that I dated someone like that. EMBARRASSED. I've never said anything like that before. I'm still good friends with Ryan, and was always cool with Tim after we broke up, but golly gee, I have so many negative waves towards Eric. I think that it makes me look dumb to have put up with that for so long. And there's no way I will ever by eloquent enough to truly express how I feel. Embarrassed is a diet word for what I really feel. Ashamed? Unlucky? 20 and extremely dumb? A waste of 2 years? I'll never know.

I just can't thank my lucky stars enough for Mark. He's pretty perfect in every way. I've seen or talked to him everyday since February 18th, and still going strong. I trust him, he does nice things, and probably the greatest thing is that he doesn't have a terrible reputation. He's just the right person for me, and I can't believe it took me 22 years to find him.

Delusionoids

I hate 'em! Here are pictures of kittens to help me calm down. Ugh. I feel like I only blog when I am upset. I can't even begin to explain about this delusionoid pair that keeps popping up. They really should be together.

Fox Mulder, one of the loves of my life.



I hope you are doing okay, Bagheera.