Kings of the Kilburn High

Name: Kimmi
Date: 7/31/2009
Colorgenics Number: 23701564

You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless.. You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.

You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn't seem to work, then try something different.

You are a demanding egocentric and therefore quick to take offence. This attitude makes people feel somewhat inadequate when in your company and so it is no wonder that at times you feel alone and unwanted.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety. You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realised. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see.






Fuck this.

The Pogues

If I should fall from grace with god
Where no doctor can relieve me
If Im buried neath the sod
But the angels wont receive me
-The Pogues



Fuck yesterday. At least I got to go to bed at 10 pm. I'm very well rested today. I've been listening to Gogol Bordello and the Cramps and I WANT TO DANCE. Bikini Girls with Machine Guns. We're all going to Tropicanoe Cove tomorrow to get our tan on.

I think I'm quitting drinking, however I have no one to be a pillar of support. Help?

Sad Eyed Lady of the Lowlands

I am upset. And by upset, I mean I'm sick of being ignored or having people think that they can just walk all over me. I am really upset at what Tiffany said to Bradley, and that's probably why we didn't get to talk last night. Or maybe its just me, because I'm fucking stupid anyway. I don't know what to do anymore. Dating? Fuck that. You cannot tell me that you will meet a person who actually compliments so wonderfully, that they want to be around you all the time. Fairy tales. But it's a drag! You're so mean!
Destroying my belief in, in love - oh love. I'm going absolutely crazy having to sit here in W.La. Let's laugh it up guys, I don't want to be here anymore. I have to finish school. I really don't like a lot of people here anymore, and I am so jealous of those who got to get away. I have my job, which I love, but other than that I really don't have anything to do these days. I don't have any money, and my car isn't reliable. I felt so happy and I couldn't stop smiling when I thought that someone ACTUALLY liked me. But then again, I should take a good look at myself and realize who I am, and who I've always been, someone who doesn't get cared about.

This is so emo, and I don't care. I'm going back to have Bob talk some sense into me. I don't think people know how emotional I actually am. I'm not tough, and I over analyze things. I'm not fucking cool. I'm a traditional pisces, and I want my heart to go back inside the bony cage that protects it, no more of this on the sleeve bullshit.

"Sorry about the mess."-Han Solo

You got your Cherry Bomb

I am listening to Fischerspooner. Its pretty rad for the end of the day. I was violently hungover this morning due to Tiffany bringing a million people to my house and some dude seriously creeping my house. I was so pissed. I finished my project for the city today, and blogged for the company. I need to go clean out my old apartment, but that just might wait until tomorrow.

I've been re-reading all of my old Myspace blogs, and I used to be really witty. Now, I feel like I can't type fast enough or put words down in the correct fashion. My colorgenics was correct today. Big surprise.

Name: Kimmi
Date: 7/29/2009
Colorgenics Number: 12457603

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.

You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has trod before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.

There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.

You are experiencing excess frustration and agitation which is the result of trying to resist any form of stimulation or excitement. This may lead to nervous exhaustion, angry outbursts or lowering of the libido. This on-going situation could become threatening and dangerous. You are furious at the thought that you may be unable to achieve your goals and even more distressed at your feeling of helplessness to remedy this. You are at the point of a nervous mental and physical breakdown but it's not too late to do something about it - take a rest, forget about everything and try to take heed of that ancient adage 'He who fights and runs away - lives to fight another day'.

You are completely worn out and you are not in the mood for any further demands on your resources. The situation - such as it is - has rendered you quite helpless, unable to continue the mental battle that you have been pursuing for some considerable time. Enough is enough. All you would like to do now would be to have some time for yourself, to find a peaceful situation where you can recuperate in your own time.


Help me, Obi-Wan Kenobi. You're my only hope.

Sweet

although you get my hopes up too much sometimes, then i only love you as many stars are in the sky as opposed to atoms in the universe as normal


I love my best friend!

Dunkin' Donuts and Irish Creme

[Thursday, January 11, 2007

These stories need no embellishment
Current mood:thinking some girl is a fucking creep
In opening, these stories have not been embellished, because - they need no embellishment. They are simply, horrifyingly, the story of my life as a short, stocky, oddly witted little girl.Thank you.

I think my microwave is trying to kill me.

I've recently found out that farmy people who go here think Purdue is in a city.

My trapezius muscle wants to escape my body.]

I love finding old posts. I sound like I was funny or something. I totally overreacted last night, and I'm disappointed in myself for it. I guess I really don't know how to act anymore, which is annoying. I definitely do not feel grown up in the least. I would watch Star Wars to make me feel better, but I do not have a VHS player, and I don't have it on DVD.

I'm sorry to everyone.

I went to high school with a girl that looked like Jabba the Hutt.

My project for work is slowly eeking along. Why does art take way too long to do?

I stayed up until 2:30 last night being an insomniac, and its getting really bad. I couldn't even read myself to sleep. I was dragging this morning for work for sure. I'm awake now because I have stuff to do, but DAMN at 7:45 am.

Fight with parents last night because I spent $20 in Indy and didn't tell them that I went to Indy.

I'm pretty boring lately.

Guy at rest stop to Ash: "M&Ms, good choice."
Ash to me:"I should have said, 'Wait until you see my other goodies.'"

Feeling hot hot hot

Great weekend after returning from Chicago via the Amtrak. Ashley took me to Indy and we spent at fun night at the Doormen Pub. Saturday was girl's day and we sat at the canal for hours upon hours people watching and sharing stories. Then we went roller skating ant watched StepBrothers. I had such a fun time, and today I went with Ash to search for houses for her and Aub. It was great. Now I'm back in Lafayette, we watched Bend it Like Beckham.

I don't understand boys at all. I don't get it.

I know everything sucks, whoa-oh-oh

So I had a very nice dinner tonight with Nancy. And I was so freaking nervous about going over there, but it all worked out pretty well. We watched Star Wars, duh. She made the best pasta I've ever eaten in my life.

I hate playing games, and I have my heart on my sleeve, as opposed to inside my sternum where it should be at all times. I'm a hopeless romantic, maybe just hopeless (BOUNCING SOULS). He's so freaking nice and I sound like a total vagina.

I have to go to Chicago tomorrow, and I actually don't want to go. Weird.

My work schedule is not conducive to hanging out. My car is not conducive to hanging out. FML, yo.

Ash came home last night and was romantic by throwing rocks at my window. I wish boys would do that! I love her so much. I hope she gets the job she's interviewing for today.

L-O-V-E is just another word I never learned to pronounce

Bad dreams this morning. Actually kept me up and then I slept in until 2. I don't want to think about that shit ever again.


I love 3 oh3 and I don't fucking care. I don't really care about anything anymore, sans like 6 people.

Geeking Out.

I something similar to this on the back of my car (minus the photo). I swear if one more person in Indiana says I’m racist about this sticker, I might freak out. I’M JUST A NERD!

Long weekend. Aubrey came to visit. So nice to have her back. Also Kat came to visit. This was a pretty awesome weekend. I couldn't stop squeaking from happiness because I was so excited.



Sorry I've been neglecting Blogger, I'm at tumblr (kimmi-page.tumblr.com) so much more often.

I am SO listening to Fenix TX and not thinking about you. I'm just enjoying my life, and not being a total sleaze. :)

Makes a girl go "whoooo-oooo"

http://kimmi-page.tumblr.com/

You know you want to visit that site. Why? Because I've moved up 41 points in popularity since yesterday.....and it's about Star Wars.



Validation: "bonniegrrl@kimmi_page http://twitpic.com/agm4r - You're a Star Wars supermodel! Hubba Hubba! ;-)" - Bonnie from LucasArts

This is from 30 September 2008

"[ mood | diet cola ]
[ music | i'm so lonesome i could cry - hank williams, sr. ]

i am very sick of everyone thinking that i don't like them. i don't want to hear anymore secrets, and i am very alone. i want to be able to not go to class at 7:30 and be able to live with eric. however, this is not a reality. i hate sleeping alone. two more days until the jeopardy college test. my ears are making a clicking noise when i move my jewelry around. we have bald faced hornets eating our porchalcony. i don't want to work.




modeling in bloomington on saturday. very excited.
my nose is full of boogers and i should probably be in bed.




this morning on mtv, they showed 'mtv presents:fat camp' and i almost had an anxiety attack about how much i never want to go to camp again. i like being clean, not around children, and not on steroids for insectbites/sunpoisoning."



Oh how much has changed.

Finally Woken

I don't know what's wrong with me. Asked Mutti to make some appointments for bloodwork. Coeliac disease, man. I hope I don't have that. I like beer too much.

I couldn't sleep last night. I need a cocktail of uppers and Red Bull because honestly this coffee isn't working out. Not sure how Ash managed to get to Castleton by 8:45, she was up as late as I was.

Got upset yesterday and shut phone off for three hours. Might happen today too. Can't wait to talk with Casey and Katy later. Why can't everyone just stop being weird or lying or lame? You want me not to talk to anyone? I can do that.

Living across from a construction zone stinks. And by stinks, I mean it makes noises so loud that it shakes my bed. Now normally if I wasn't asleep, I wouldn't think that the zombie apocalypse was happening, but these were different circumstances.

Jeepster

I am doing an olive oil treatment right now. I'll be watching Laguna Beach later.

FML, nothing works out for me, eh? I'm so not sure what to think right now.

Boy you just a stupid bitch, and girl you just a no good dick

I had the most amazing weekend ever! Friday started off with Casey, Katy, and I getting creeped on by every grotty guy in the entire town. It ended with me pretending to be a an exchange student from Deutschland. Pictures after we were schnockered below. It was pretty successful. Kyle drove us home, and I preceeded to steal Cactus cups out of his car. Slept in on Saturday, got sick, went to the supermarket, made a Caprese salad for the girls, then headed down to Indy.




Indianapolis is becoming a place that I really enjoy going to. I got to Bradley and Trey's at 8:30, and we didn't go out. We watched some movies and bummed around, which I desperately needed. Yesterday, we got a late start and Bradley and I went to Broadripple to get some food. I got two Chicago dogs in Indy! I was so excited that they had Vienna beef. I got the call that Aubrey is coming back home. I'm glad she is, I see now that this was not the best time for her to go, but at least she did it! And when the damn economy picks up, she can move right on back to Arizona in that little yellow car of hers! I'm really sick of some other friends being weird if we talk aka GROW UP. Bradley and I went to Castleton mall to visit Ash, and I got some BALLER wedges for $20 from her store. Then off to Half Price books, where I got some sweet records, books, and a Han Solo figurine complete with carbonite block.

I left Indy at 6 AM. And now I am at work. I really didn't want to leave. I'm pretty sure I have a major crush on Bradley. He's so sweet, and everytime we went to get food he kept trying to throw money at me. This is something I'm not used to at all. We did some dishes together yeseterday, and he showed me some hardcore and grindcore music that I totally missed out on when I was too punk to fuck in high school. It was really interesting to see different music that I would have never given a chance to otherwise.

Nice guys saying nice things

haha I won't argue with that - I meant to tell you that though I'm normally not a fan of the pierced septum, after seeing a pic of you with it you pull it off and still look beautiful so I must revise my previous position


OMG SO NICE!

I love my best friend

Kimmi

i guess ive 'gotten' people that i really liked

thats never not happened

but no dating out of it

11:55amCollin

oooh

yeah

thats tough

guys like a challenge

you have to make them feel totally hopeless

but that also means you can't be forward

scares them away

11:56amKimmi

DAMNIT

11:56amCollin

strong women are scary

11:57amKimmi

really?

WTF

i like being forward

11:57amCollin

i know

but not many men can handle that

i tried to and you punched me in the nuts

11:57amKimmi

hahahahah

true

AnaidniindianA

I'm at work. I just ate a freaking maple and creme filled bear claw because I had an inch of cereal left this morning, aka not enough to get my day started. Such a nutritious breakfast. Listening to 'Another Bag of Bricks' on the office music sharing network. I seriously love this job so much! Everyone is pretty rad.

I might go to Indy tonight if I don't PTFO after work. Stayed up quite late last night on the phone with Bradley without realizing that the time had elapsed to 4 AM. It was worth it, though. I actually had some great conversations yesterday with a few people I haven't talked to in ages, notably Jared from high school, J-Flex, and Steve from art class. If I don't make it tonight, I'll be in Indy on Saturday for sure. After a certain conversation last night, I really hope I don't run into this one person who doesn't seem to be the most trustworthy friend.

I'm getting really sick of liars. I'm trying to push all of them out of my life. Its kind of difficult. I mean, I got one out of my life, thankfully. I have never had an ex who was so hell-bent on trying to make me upset. I'm usually friends with all of them. I guess he always was the odd one out.

It pains me to think that Aubbie and I haven't been able to have good talks lately. I miss her so much! I know everyone misses her. Hopefully I'll be able to save up enough not only for all of my necessities, but for a plane ticket to get out to see her.

I expect a good weekend.

Too cute

I think Aubrey will love this.

The Show Must Go On

Way to go Eric Boes, so done.

Word of wisdom

True that!

Immigrant Punk

I have two more interviews this week! So excited. Maybe soon I will have a job. Today I paid my rent, got my parking pass, and managed to have time to lay out and keep organizing. I still need to get some stuff from my old house. OMG, so my roommates have still not taken out the trash. Its so gross, and I am so glad I don't live there anymore. Its so disgusting, I can't imagine how you can roll around in your own filth like that. Its turbo-gross, and I am not cleaning up after them. WHOO!

Ashley and Bradley are on their way to hang out in the LA! I'm really excited. I watched Superbad by myself last night, and even though I was alone, and Casey was asleep, I LOLed the entire movie. This was my second time seeing it. I relate those guys to my brothers, since they are pretty nerdy. My brothers, however, do not care about sex like those guys do. Thank goodness, because then I don't have to beat any girls up.

I talked to Eric last night, and naturally it was a drama fest. I'm really sorry I called him. I'm over it. It was stupid of me to call. But, whatever, I've moved on. You can't teach an old dog new tricks.

I can't wait for Aubbie to call later. I'm sure we have some serious girl dishing to do. If I could, I would move out there in a second. Its not fun going out without her (not that I can, due to a no-money situation), and I don't know how I ever went out without her before.

I don't know what to do about my hair. It seems like its getting thinner everyday...which is a symptom of Coeliac disease. CRAP.

Pick Up Lines

Red high heels and understated black kind of says, “I could fuck the living shit out of you if I wanted to but seriously, go look in the mirror. Do you honestly think you could handle it? I didn’t think so. I’m going to go now and you should stay here and have another beer and try to focus on someone closer to your league.

Honestly, you’d be happier that way.

We both would.

You’re sweet though.

Don’t get me wrong—but I have to go.

All to Hell we must sail

I had such a strange dream this morning. One of my best friends from High School got shot by a guy she invited over to her apartment, and I had to resuscitate her while trying to call the police. The guy escapsed out of custoday when the Purdue Math building exploded, but I jumped on him and brought him down while some other people tied him to a pole. I think I fell out of bed, because I have scratches all over my arms.

I've been having some really great conversations with new friends! I'm so excited! I think when Ash and I go to Indy next we will ditch the Mineshaft, because I still don't want to see some people. We might go hang out with Trey and Bradley with a cool 12 pack of brewski.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qRCteeZTrjE

Watch this. One of my favourite songs. Evidently I can't embed videos today. I also wanted to embed Hank Williams 'Long Gone Lonesome Blues' and Incubus 'Drive.'

I got a sweet 1971 Canon FTb camera, and I'm really excited to use it. Eat your heart out digital photography!

Going to get ready to leave for Lafayette. I can't wait to decorate my house!

Come and go with me

Goal.

I wish you would take my radio to bed with you

So I'm all moved into my new house. I love it, and its so awesome! I need to unpack, but I have mine and Ash's stuff moved into the closets. I'm all about decorating and Casey and I are going to make this the most badass house on the planet. Fail tally on the fridge starting from last night is currently at: Casey=1, Kimmi=2. One of my fails is a preemptive from a couple weeks ago. Naturally one of those fails was last night where, I woke up on the couch after walking home barefoot with Ash. Berek told me last night was the first time he saw me "not being a stealthy drunk." I woke up at about 2 pm, with a screaming headache. I'm currently in Munster, and its so boring. I wish I was in Arizona with Aubbie. Casey and I are going to go swimming tomorrow at least, since my family didn't invite us.

So I don't know how long this is going to last, but I'm taking a break from ETOH and guys....for two months. I seriously cannot put up with overconfident douches anymore. I'm like not talking to anyone unless they want to talk about books, shopping, or bettering themselves. I am so over pretentious guys. TAKE A DETOUR OFF OF THE PRETENTIOUSNESS TURNPIKE!

I'm excited to meet new Kimmi.

“Old photographs are very deceiving. They give us the illusion that we are alive in them, and it’s not true. The person we are looking at no longer exists, and if that person could see us, he or she would not recognize him or herself in us. 'Who’s that looking at me so sadly,' he or she would say.” — José Saramago

I got a picture. Of me and you.

I just spray painted my bookshelf. I think I have carpal tunnel even worse now. Yesterday was pretty fun, i went to help Lindsey paint her apartment, and I guess we are friends again, which is nice. Girls night happened last night, including me, Jamie, Tiff, Cupcake, and Lauren. It was really fun, but I'm confused at how many shots I had and wasn't drunk until much later. Jamie and I sang tunes from Chicago at the Black Sparrow. Gosh I hate that bar sometimes. Creepers.

I think I'm going to lay low this weekend, and not go to Broadripple to see Ash and Bryce. I need a break from partying, and as I said before, I'm not hip enough to party all the time. Good news is I'm gonna be cool about the sitch. Even though Ash moved into my house I haven't seen her! I'm glad she's spending time with Trey, gosh knows that everyone needs someone to be nice to them. I sure do. I still keep talking to Aubbie as much as I can. I can't even imagine how weird a new place must be! She's going to be alright though, I know it. I'm just going to be selfish and say I want her back.

I started moving my stuff into my new house today. I hate moving so much. It entails cleaning and lifting and sweating, but I'm getting so exercise. I've lost five pounds as of yesterday. I had an interview today, and I hope it went well.

I have 'Turning Japanese" by the Vapors stuck in my head.