Babe Love

Mulder is so active, it's wearing me out! I haven't seen him like this since he was a kitten. He's already lost two pounds and at his perfect weight. I'm so proud of him. I'm so glad Nancy told me to make foil balls, now I just play fetch with him all day. 

I went to a wedding with Nikki yesterday and the Rathskellar. I didn't know these people, and I kind of teared up when they were getting married. I felt so lame. Met a lot of cool people, and got to dance a little bit. It's so cold outside, that I almost never want to leave, but I know it's good for me to continue getting out and even doing things that I don't want to do, like staying up until 2 on a Thursday. The weather is making me have wicked allergy attacks, I think just being cooped up in a small space and unsure of the purity of my heater's filter. Nothing I can't deal with. I realized that I'm able to put up with almost anything, and I have been putting up with almost everything for such a long time. I'm ready to nt just put up with things, but enjoy them, and enjoy the company of amazing people.

Weight wise, I fit back into my BCBG dress. It's even a little big. I have 15 more pounds to go. I'm so fucking excited about being back at my high school weight. I can't stand it! Too bad you can't choose what goes away, I've lost a lot of chestline. Whatever, I'm just so glad I'm not fat and comfortable anymore. This is more like me, it makes me feel so much better about myself. I'm thinking of doing a cleanse soon, but I'm not sure if my will power is ready to be tested like that.

Cat watch:2011

Luckily for me, the assholes who stole my cat still put pictures of him up on Facebook. He grew up to be so handsome. I miss this little beeb. He was my first pet with hair. I loved him so much.

Bagheera, he'll be 2 this year!


Luckily though, Mulder is a perfect fit for our family, and he never ceases to amaze.

Mulder, sleeping.



Baggy Update

My Baggy

So by now I'm sure everyone knows that my old roommate Katie stole my cat, Bagheera. Well he lives in Oregon now with one of her really lame friends. I found this picture of him on Facebook, and its exciting to see that he's all big now. I miss him, and I would imagine that he and Mulder would be good friends. I want to get another black cat one day.

I guess its for the better that I don't have anything to remind me about my life in Lafayette. I keep having really weird dreams about I don't like it. Its like I'm just kicking myself for putting up with bullshit for so long. I'm embarrassed that I dated someone like that. EMBARRASSED. I've never said anything like that before. I'm still good friends with Ryan, and was always cool with Tim after we broke up, but golly gee, I have so many negative waves towards Eric. I think that it makes me look dumb to have put up with that for so long. And there's no way I will ever by eloquent enough to truly express how I feel. Embarrassed is a diet word for what I really feel. Ashamed? Unlucky? 20 and extremely dumb? A waste of 2 years? I'll never know.

I just can't thank my lucky stars enough for Mark. He's pretty perfect in every way. I've seen or talked to him everyday since February 18th, and still going strong. I trust him, he does nice things, and probably the greatest thing is that he doesn't have a terrible reputation. He's just the right person for me, and I can't believe it took me 22 years to find him.

December

<----Since I'm really good at the internet, I found a picture of my beautiful baby. He's so big! I miss Bagheera so bad.

I am really glad this year is almost over. I'm ready to ship out. Naturally, this morning, I had lots of things to write about.

I no longer have lots of things to write about.

After two months of letting Eric's relationship request simmer in my mailbox, I accepted it. No sooner did two hours pass that this girl who I have always despised due to her unclean and untruthful nature, sends Eric a message saying that she's really happy that we are back together. I think it was big of her to say that if they were friends, but its still so fucking sketchy. This girl has wanted to bone Eric, and has tried while we were dating. It skeezes me out when gross girls that he knows, and he knows a lot of gross girls, still FLIRT with him, no matter what their relationship status is. So yeah, K.R, I still don't like you.

Fashion show on Saturday, then HOPEFULLY going to see my sweet Aubrey.