19 June

This body. 

Breakfast:
Banana
24 oz. coffee
1 c. Hemp Milk
3 pieces Salami
12 oz Bolthouse Strawberry Banana Smoothie

Lunch:
4 sm balls of fresh mozz
4 grape tomatoes
3 pieces salami

Snack:
EnviroKids bar

Dinner:
2 Coconut LaCroix
Diet Coke
6 pcs Sunset Roll: Crab, Cucumber, Avocado, Salmon
2 pcs salmon nigiri
1/2 order seaweed salad

Nightcap:
Vodka soda

Gluten Free Madness: Check In

Gluten free is EXPENSIVE. 

I spent about $80 yesterday for a week's worth or groceries. I have to take time to make my risotto tomorrow so I can take that in for lunch. I need to learn how to stretch my groceries instead of getting really excited and eating a plate of one of everything.

Really missing Luna bars and Boca spicy chkn patties. This EnviroKids bar is no substitute, and I love spicy chkn. I feel better sleep-wise even though I slept in until I was almost late this morning just because I was straight-up snuggly in my bed.

Here are some of the changes I am making:

• EnviroKids instead of Luna for breakfast. EnviroKids does not have a coconut flavor which is obviously a conspiracy against me. 
• 10 oz of Bolthouse smoothie for breakfast in addition to my usual 24 oz of coffee. I would buy a juicer right now but I don't even want to think about bringing more stuff into my possession, since I'm trying to get rid of everything for moving. 
• Quasi Atkins diet action going on. I am going to have to force myself to eat carbs. Really the only carbs I've had in the past month have been saffron rice from Poccadio and tortilla chips like once. 
• Hemp Milk instead of soy milk. It's not as sweet. Trying to stay away from soy. 

I really hope I can modify this diet into helping me lose weight as well as making me feel better. 

Fuck it, man.

I'm getting out of here.

I have great hair.

Everyone can fuck off.

My new wine glasses are so big they echo.

I am making my dreams come true, and the only person I need to prove that to is me. Friends are amazing, and have shown me more love than anyone. It's nice to have people supporting you, especially when the ones closest to you don't believe you can do anything.

See you in a week, LA.

Merp.

Sometimes I look back on most of the shit I've created and I hate it.

Practice makes perfect, and I need to practice. And hope Mulder doesn't eat my paint.

Motivation

Sometimes I feel like the weekends are made for staying in bed and watching Netflix. I did do that for quite a long time this morning, actually. But getting back to motivation, I watched an episode of Hoarders. It’s disgusting and all, but I am glad that I watched it. It made me clean my apartment so hard. I don’t even really want to go out tonight because I’d like to continue organizing, cleaning, and making the most of this dorm room-like space. Miranda and I went to Target and I re-upped my cleaning supplies. Probably won’t end up going out since saving money is my #1 priority. 

I’ve never been a dirty person, I’ve just always had way too much stuff. See: college apartments. Probably going to sort through clothes tonight and get a Goodwill run ready. Girlfriends are welcome to come over and stuff once I tackle this monumental feat. It’s time to downsize some things for sure. 

Got two records for $2 at the Exchange, David Bowie Fashion and Paul Revere and the Raiders. David Bowie record pops, I guess that goes into the art project pile. The Paul Revere one is awesome, and has “Not Your Steppin’ Stone” on it, which is one of my personal jams. I took my desktop computer down since it’s fried, and actually have a working desk again. I also organized all of my colored pencils. 

Got my “Combat Rock” record out and was given reassurance in how amazing my dad is. It was my first record, given to me in 7th grade. He wanted me to hear “Know Your Rights” while I was having a rough time. That album changed my entire life. 

It’s the little things, right?