If I could be like that..

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it goes like this:

i don't have any tattoos
my boobs aren't big enough
i can barely remember things
nutrition assessment is dumb
i hate being impulsive
i am completely unorganized
i go in and out through various stages of inadequacy


let's ride off into the sunset.

i am not cool.

i never will be cool.

i was a loser in high school.

what these three statements mean to me is integrated with the fact that 'scenes' scare the shit out of me, and i am glad i was never in one. by focusing on the hardcore scene, i have deduced that it is simply an outlet for angry people to beat each other, while boys and girls have an excuse for the old 'in out, in out.' after living in this small university town for the past four years, it sickens me to see how girls throw themselves at boys who have no future. they fuck them because they have tattoos, gauges, or any other 'unique' quality. that's how a group of girls got gonorrhea at my high school; having sex with one boy because of the way he looked. i feel that girls, our next generation of women, aged 17-22 are throwing their lives away by following these boys. getting bad tattoos to impress these boys. getting pregnant because they listen to these boys. everyone knows how much i do not have respect for sluts, male or female. i don't care if you are a nice person, or have a hookup to a really great concert. you disrespect yourself by going home with someone else every night, cheating on any or all of those people, and subsequently wanting to be friends with them afterwards. i am not a christian. i have no religion. yet, i still have some type of value to uphold. otherwise you end up on the bangbus having sex with strangers on camera. you can't fuck your way to the top. even if you do, i hope you feel empty inside.

our generation is shallow and unorganized. i can't wait to pass some people by on the road of life.
this was a collection of a little part of everything i am feeling right now.
this was typed on a macbook with nine fingers, since i cut the tip off of one of them.


i mean every word i say, when i think you are a poser